Mari
This is the first time I have ever been to this website. And first let me say
WOW!!! I am a cocaine addict, been clean for almost 8 years, but I was married to a heroin addict for 8 years. We have 3 children together, they are 7, 3, and 2.
My oldest grew up visiting her daddy in prison. My other two don't know him
except from his pictures. I have tried countless times to understand his addiction.
Being an addict myself I know it takes all you have everyday to beat it, but
everyone I know says the two drugs are totally different and that I will never know
what he's going through. He has hepatitis b and c. He has been out of prison
this time for over a month and started using again. He is only 28 years old and has been an addict to cocaine and heroin for about 9 years. He is so handsome and
loving. He has lost control of his life.
I read the obituaries and cried because I am so scared that one day I am either going to find him dead or get that call.
Even though we are divorced now, I love him everyday. My love only grows but I
can't put my kids through what my oldest went through with him. She loves her
daddy, but she's been through high speed chases with him, seen him use, seen him
steal from us, clear out bank accounts, sell our vehicles for a fix, promise he'll
never leave and then leave for months or years at a time.
I realize this is a website for people who are addicts or people who have already lost someone, but I just want to say thanks because it has helped me, and if there is anyone out there that can help me to understand or tell me if letting go is the right or wrong thing to do, please let me hear from you.
And God Bless and Good Luck to those of you fighting, who have lost the fight, and to those of you who have lost someone.
Much Love
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Suggested Reading
With Smack, winner of the Guardian Prize for Fiction,
Melvin Burgess brilliantly sketches a gradual descent into drug
addiction. There is no preaching here, just the artful revelation
of cold, hard facts.
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