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Cry Out
I have been a multi addict for quite a few yrs now, never beeing able to kick my demons. It had put me in jail, detox, rehab, parole.Basicly lost everything I had ever worked to acheive.
The other day I ran across some old poems that I had wrote while I was using and in pain, and now by reading them I can see myself screaming for help.
I hope this poem will help others see what could be standing right in front of them, and the ways we cry out for help.
~ Bruce (Edmonton Ab Canada) ~
 LOST IN A STORMY SEA,NO CONTROL OR HOPE 
 WAITING TO DIE,WATER FILLING MY BOAT
 SCATTERED THOUGHTS OF THE PAST,AND BETTER DAYS 
 LOSING HOPE FROM THE CRUSHING WAVES
 ALL ALONE WITH NO CONTROL,
 PLEASURES AND FEELINGS THAT I WILL NEVER KNOW.
 IS DEATH THE END OR A NEW START,
 I CAN FEEL DEEP FEAR,GRIPPING MY HEART.
 STAIRING THIS FORCE FACE TO FACE,
 I GUESS GOD IS SHOWING ME HOW I LIVED IN HASTE
 THIS MUST BE MY PUNISHMENT FOR MY PAST,
 FOR BEING SELFISH AND LIVING TOO FAST
 THE POWER OF NATURE HAS CHOSEN MY LIFE,
 AND LAUGHS WHILE I FIGHT,
 FOR I HAVE NO RIGHT!
 I HAVE BEEN CHOSEN,MY TIME HAS COME.
 THE FORCES OF ITS POWER HAS JUST ABOUT WON.
 MY BOAT STARTS TO SINK,MY BODY TURNS COLD
 AS MY SECURITY DISAPEARS,NOTHING LEFT TO HOLD.
 DARKNESS ENTERS AS I CHOKE BACK DEATH,
 MY MIND FADES BLACK AS I SINK TO THE DEPTHS.
 I HOPE MY SOAL CAN FIND THE LIGHT,
 AND FIND A HOME WITH STRENGH AND FORSIGHT.
 NATURE DID NOT LIKE THE WAYS I BEHAVED,
 AND SENTENCED ME TO HER WATERY GRAVE.
 HER POWER OF SURVIVAL WITH LIFE CAN'T BE RIGHT OR WRONG

"Bruce sighs" :(

 

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